Hmmm...

I have been awful at keeping up on posts. I've also been thinking about starting a blog with married life things, since it's a new chapter in my life. Micah is big on not having 'everyone know our business' but it's also a nice way to share important, fun and uplifting things with family and friends.
So this is me saying Hi, and possibly starting a new blog. :)

Long time, no post

Wow. It has been a little over 5 months since I've updated!!!! SO MANY things have happened in my life, like:

Graduating from SVU (walking, anyway)
Moving to Charlotte
Adjusting to a new city and new friends and roommates
Meeting the love of my life
Getting engaged
Wedding Planning
... ok, essentially really big stuff.

I must say how grateful I am for personal revelation, and grateful that I was wise enough to heed the Spirit in deciding to move to Charlotte. I knew that I would find the reason why I needed to be there. And I met him my very first Sunday in my new ward :) It took around 4 weeks before he asked me on a date, but everything worked wonderfully and smoothly. Within 2 weeks I knew that that he was the one I wanted (and should) to spend eternity with. It took him a BIT more time than that for him to fully accept that. But now we are getting married and have a date set and everything!!! I am so excited to be married and to start my life with him. Heavenly Father has truly blessed me. It wasn't an easy road to get there, but in the end it was all worth it.

I really don't have too much to add, but thought that I would post something since it's been so long!

The trying of your faith worketh patience

It's so true. Trials are always for our benefit. Of course sometimes it's hard to remember that when there is so much pressure and stress!

Obviously I haven't had time to update anything. The week before Senior show my average bed time was 5am, and the week of Senior Show my average bedtime was 7 am, although I think at least 2 of those nights I only got 2 hours of sleep. Needless to say, my body hated me. A lot.
Looking back, I can honestly say that my senior art show is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my life. It taxed me in so many ways: spiritually, mentally, artfully, academically and especially physically.
The day of senior show I had only slept for an hour, and all the pressure that I had been feeling clustered together and I broke down twice. Now, those who know me know that it takes a lot for me to break down. This is the first semester it has EVER happened. I've never had so much stress and pressure (and emotions) before. In February alone I had 3 break downs in a week!!! I like to be in control of my negative emotions, so losing it was not a happy feeling.
Although the journey has been extremely difficult, I can say without a doubt that the Lord has been with me all the way. Before I started this semester Dad gave me a blessing, and from it I knew that I would be making a lot of difficult decisions, and I knew that I was going to have a difficult time, but as long as I remembered and kept faith, I would be OK.
I know that the only reason why I got through senior show was because I was promised in a blessing that I would accomplish all that I needed to do. There were miracles the day of senior show. Some of them came through the friends that helped me. I would not have had a display if my friends didn't help me, and my 5th piece would not have been assembled if it weren't for my friends. Heavenly Father is watching out for me.
Yet there was a time at the beginning of April when I knew my faith was wavering. I still hadn't figured out anything to do with moving, my senior show seemed like it would NEVER get done, and I was losing hope. When I felt that hope and faith slipping I just didn't know what to do. There was a moment when I just went for a drive and I sat there and just cried and I told the Lord that I didn't have faith, and that I needed help to have hope and faith again.
It made me think about the man in the New Testament who was asked by the Lord if he had faith that his child would be healed, and he said "help thou my unbelief" and the Lord healed the child. From that story I realized that I at least had faith that the Lord would answer my prayer, and I knew that that was enough. Of course the prayer was answered and I had my friends and professors' help, and I accomplished all that I needed for senior show. But he also blesed me with inspiration on who to ask about housing and to be able to look for jobs that are relevant to my major.

I have just been so blessed this semester. It reminds me of the footprints in the sand poem. It's true that when you're going through difficult times and you just wonder "how did I ever do that?" it's because the Lord was there carrying you through it. I am so grateful for the gospel in my life, and I am so grateful for my friends and family, and for church organization! :)

The future is as bright as your faith

Wow!
What a month...
What a semester...

Things sure have been crazy and busy! February was a difficult decision making month filled with a ton of prayer, fasting and tears. But decisions have been made, especially the BIG one. Which, of course, is where I'm moving after graduation. Well, that and what I wanted to do for senior art show.
This month has been pretty crazy. Decisions lead to more decisions, which leads to more decisions.
Decision 1) Move to Charlotte
Decision 2) Where to apply for jobs
Decision 3) Where to live

So with Decision 1 comes 2 and 3. So this month has been full of figuring out where to live and where to work. These things have NOT been figured out. But I'm hoping to move the 1st week in May. We shall see how that goes...

Other occurrences in March:
- Started working on Senior show.
- Stressed over senior show, and everything to go with it
- Forgot about other classes because of my focus on senior show
- SPRING BREAK with KIMBERLY! and lots and lots of driving
- Got extremely sick (probably Mono) and was literally IN bed for about 4 days. Kim got me sick.
- Lost weight due to illness
- Lost senior show time due to illness, which means I am EXTREMELY behind
- Mom and Dad came to visit :)

Looking back at last year and this year, I've realized that the last 2 years have been difficult in regards to making decisions, enduring to the end, and spiritual growth. Even in the last 2 months I've felt that I've learned so much spiritually, and emotionally.
Recently I had a little bit of an epiphany brought on by a very simple comment from a friend. I realized that I needed to sort out my priorities, and that I needed to have a more Christ-centered life and to exercise my faith more. And be more positive, hence the quote by President Monson as my title.

The future is as bright as your faith

I wish I were at the beach...

Alright so here's the thing. I'm supposed to write in my journal about my art process. Well, whenever it comes time to write in my journal I'm just s tired that I don't WANT to! Which is bad... So, here I am typing and sharing some of my ideas for Senior Show.
So my show started out as having a somewhat vague subject (something and the heavens and earth and how they're all connected etc) that I was having a hard time thinking of depicting. The other dilemma I was faced with is how big to make my prints (to then be turned into books).
Then one day in printmaking class one of the girls saw one of my experiment prints and said that it reminded her of Mythology. Then I went to see Lightning Thief and got a sudden epiphany while trying to sleep at 3am in the morning. Polynesian Mythology!!!!
So here I am FINALLY with a subject that I find really interesting, and I'm excited to do it! I can use the same style I've BEEN doing and expound upon it. So I picked six of the gods/goddesses from Polynesian mythology and I will make prints out of their stories. Not exact depictions, but kind of abstract. Of course I am in a state of "flux" as Crawford states, and this idea could change or evolve further. But here's some pictures to get the creative juices flowing.
The picture on the top is of Maui. He's well known for his hook, and legend says that he pulled the North Island out of the water like a fish. Hence you see a lot of Hooks in Maori culture. And how could I NOT do something from New Zealand?
Then there is Tangaroa, god of the sea. He's very important to all Polynesian cultures (hmmm, I wonder why?)
Tawhiri is god of storms etc. Of course all of these gods are related in some way.
Tane is god of the forest. Tangaroa, Tawhiri and Tane are all connected. Apparently Tangaroa created fish and reptiles, and dislikes Tane because half of his children went to live with him on land (or something like that). And Tawhiri dislikes both Tane and Tangaro for splitting up their parents Rangi and Papa, hence his angry winds.
Pele, goddess for fire, volcanoes etc. I like to think of her as the Hawaii side of the mythology, and how could I not represent Hawaii in some way?
And of course Rangi and Papa, the creators. Apparently their were in a tight embrace and were separated by Tane and some of their other children, this creating the heavens/sky and earth. So in a sense Papa is mother earth.

Another one I am considering is Ta'aroa, who is from Tahitian mythology. Apparently there was chaos, and he created the heavens and earth from a cosmic egg. Sounds funny, I know, but it would be really cool to depict that! :)

So those are the ideas I'm running with at the moment. I start my first print this week!!!! AHHH!!! April 15 is when Senior Show opens, and I have myself scheduled to be done the first week in April. Wish me luck!

Lead, Kindly Light

Oh what a semester is has been so far! I thought it would be good to have a little bit of an update of fun and cool happenings!

Things that have happened since Spring Semester:
- Got to spend time with Julie who came to visit from WA
- Went to D.C. for two days to go to Ricky and Katie's Wedding!!
- Went to a concert here at school
- Spend lots of time with Saskia and on the phone with Kimberly
- Lot's of school... and art. Art is life.
- it snowed. a LOT a few weeks in a row.
- Went to Raleigh to visit Jeremy for a weekend :)
- Went to the Valentine's Dance with Lyzzie and Bekah. Most of the people there didn't have dates haha!

Here we are in D.C. stuck in traffic. Yeah... I swear I was not driving AND taking pictures!


The happy Couple! YAY!!!! :D

Lots of snow! I was waiting outside for Saskia. It was kind of cold...
Valentine's Dance! Man I am SHORT even in heels :) My face is kinda dorky.


But on to serious life:
Life since my last update has been very interesting. Extremely taxing and challenging. And here I thought that last week was difficult (which it was in its own way). This week it got to the point where it wasn't even school stress bothering me, but life in general(most everything). The feelings of complete helplessness and feeling lost was overpowering this week. Then, at one point, I felt like my support system was failing in one of the biggest areas--- my family.
When you feel like your family isn't supporting you, then where do you go? If your friends just aren't enough, what do you do? When all else seems to fail where do you turn? To Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, of course!
I feel like a trend has happened for the last 2-3 weeks. The week will start pretty good, and eventually it will escalate (or get worse) and by the end of the week things hit the highest peak and when I feel like everything is falling around me and I can't even stand anymore and want to fall apart, the Lord picks me up. Obviously there are some wonderful gospel principles in there. Ex: The Lord will not give us more than we can handle.
This week I hit my peak on Thursday, which was spurred by a conversation/argument with Mom. Thursday was a very horrible day for me. It's like the water works were on and didn't want to turn off. Friday I find out that I get to teach Relief Society. At that point I just couldn't fathom teaching in the emotional, physical and maybe spiritual condition I was in.
I prepared a lesson on Acquiring Spiritual Guidance and Personal Revelation (a mix of two conference talks be Elder Scott and Elder Nelson). Sunday I woke up feeling OK about my lesson, but still feeling blah from the last few days. In Sacrament meeting I wanted to cry all through the meeting because the talks were wonderful (and just what I needed) and I could feel the spirit, but part of me was pleading that I could keep it together enough to teach my lesson. In the opening exercises for R.S. our opening hymn was 'Lead, Kindly Light.' I feel that that song was a tender mercy for me. It made me want to bawl my eyes out because it embodied exactly how I was feeling. But I couldn't cry before my lesson! I pleaded for help and calm, and I pleaded that the lesson would be taken into His hands because I felt so lost and I wanted those girls to learn something and be able to feel the spirit. I couldn't do it alone.
I know that the only reason why I got through this week is because of the Lord, and because of my friends (and family). The lesson went really well. I was completely under control during the whole lesson, and I think that it flowed better than I thought it would. I'm grateful for people who comment in class, and I'm grateful that Heavenly Father answered my prayer in regards to taking over the class.
Teaching that lesson was also a tender mercy. I really needed to rely on the Lord and I know that my trials will pass and that they are for my good. I do have big decisions to make, and I finally feel that I have the ability and the resources to make them. Although some things are still unsure, I need to just have Faith and keep praying and I will receive the answer when I need to.
And now after my really long post, here is some current artwork that I have experimented with for senior art show. I finally have a concept, and I'm going to start working on it this week. EEEE! Wish me luck...

What a week!

I have to say that last week was one of the most challenging weeks I have ever had. In Institute this week my teacher talked about being put in 'the press' and how school and life and teachers etc. can press us. I felt VERY pressed. Pressed to the point of tears, more than once.
Last week I decided that taking 18 credits was insane and I was going to withdraw from one of my classes and take it in May. There were a few bumps getting to the point where I could actually go and do it, which caused a lot of distress. Plus my Professor for Sr Art show decided that she wanted us to have our exhibition outline with sketches and plans and examples ready by Tuesday (today). Of course add a ton of reading and other art projects and assignments mixed in with stress and some emotions and you get Alanna freaking out to the point of feeling depressed.

Of course I got through it! It was difficult, but I did. With help. Over the weekend I was still feeling emotionally worn out, tired and depressed. I went to visit my brother who has been going through a very difficult emotional time. So mix the two of us together for the weekend and you have me going a bit crazy.
While I was there trying to support my brother, I was reading my scriptures and felt that I needed to ask myself some questions. First, I asked myself "what is making me feel this way, and is it a rational feeling?" I noticed that some of my feelings were irrational and I knew that I needed to be patient and to think positively, so that helped me to identify the things that were bothering me. Second, I asked myself "What can I learn from these trials?" Some things I came up with were faith, patience, endurance, and relying on the Lord.
Last I asked myself "Have I talked to the Lord about this and asked for comfort?" another question to go with that is "How much have you relied on the Lord?" I realized that although I pray regularly I was not having the faith that I needed, and I wasn't asking for what I really needed. I needed to ask Heavenly Father for his comfort and help. And I did. The peace that came to my mind and heart were indescribable. I was able to think clearly and I was given the peace that I needed. In James 1:3 is says that the trying of our faith worketh patience, and I know that part of life is being patient for the Lord's time and being patient in general. But it also means that sometimes our faith needs to be tried, by going through the press.

I am so grateful for prayer! I know the God loves all of His children and He wants us to be happy! If we communicate with Him, then he is better able to bless us. If we ask for comfort, he shall give it.

Although last week was a nightmare, I know that I can learn a lot of things from it that can and will bless my life. How grateful I am for that knowledge! Now I just need to keep reminding myself :) and keep relying on the Lord! It's always easier to see the blessing from a trial when you're past it, rather than when you're in it. That's why we must Endure to the End! We sure have a lot to endure in this life, but the eternal rewards make up for it ten fold.

I have a lot of decisions to make in my life, and I know that some of those cannot be answered at this time. I have a lot to do and stress and feeling sad do NOT help with the creative process. I am happy, I am blessed and I am SO GRATEFUL for my friends and family who are there for me and support me through everything! You really are wonderful :)

Seeing far is one thing, going there is another

This is a quote that my Professor shared with us in Senior Art Show. I'm really feeling this quote right now. It seems that I need to "see far" in a lot of aspects of my life. I have my Art Show, Graduation, moving away from home and graduate school. All of those are very important aspects of my life, and they are all overlapping in their time.

Graduation preparation has started (paying for cap and gown and applying to graduate etc), and I feel like I barely have a grasp on what to do for my senior show. Art show is in April, Graduation is in May. The other thing I need to decide is whether or not to do a Maymester, since that decision will influence other important decisions.

I told Mom and Dad that I have felt that Alaska is not where I should be after I graduate. I've known this for a year, and last year I was considering Utah. Of course I went to school there all summer, and I just felt that that wasn't the right place for me to go. The East coast was always very appealing to me, but I was afraid to be out here on my own. Then Jeremy decided to move back to NC. So at this moment I am leaning toward living in NC after I graduate (and visit home). Which means that I would have to find a job. Hopefully something related to my FCD major.

The other thing that this influences is graduate school. I would love to eventually do Art Therapy, but to start out I've decided to do a general counseling degree or do an MSW/LCSW. North Carolina schools happen to have some programs I really like, and most of them are cheaper than the VA schools that have the programs I want. Hence another reason why I'm leaning toward moving to NC. Also, I wouldn't be starting grad school until fall of 2011. So I have time to worry about that later!

Of course in all of these big decisions I must seek God's will in all of them. Sometimes I find this challenging because my art professor wants us to be centered on Art daily. But I really believe that Art has a way of speaking to our spirits, and I know that as I focus on the good things in life I will be open to the influence of the Spirit, and thus being open to the influence and guidence it brings. I know the Lord will guide me during this time. I also know that I will be spending a lot of time on my knees this semester. I knew that big decisions would be coming my way, and now the time is coming closer. I now need to go there. Be. Do. Accomplish.

Overall, I am happy and blessed. I'm just grateful that I have all the tools to help guide me in the correct direction. Life is wonderful and full of challenges that help us to grow. I know that this semester will be the most challenging mentally, spiritually and artfully! Now I just need to rise to the challenge and take life head on!

Here are some monotypes that I promised :) (the last is my favorite)

Seeing Black

Wow... it's my LAST SEMESTER of my undergraduate career. How exciting is that!? VERY

So here's the big things that I need to accomplish this semester:
1) Senior Art Show
2) Senior/Advanced Paper
3) Book of Mormon 1 (Independent Study)
4) Book of Mormon 2 (I need both to graduate from institute. Woo hoo!)
5) Pass all of my classes with a B or higher :) (Ok, so that's more of a goal than anything)
6) GRADUATE

Can you guess which one is BIG(not including graduation)!? Well if you can't... it's the Art show. We had our first meeting yesterday and it was so scary, but SO EXCITING at the same time! Prof Crawford asked us what we wanted to get out of Senior show and when we went around the room I said that I wanted to push myself and do something that will make me grow in a lot of ways. Which means that I need to be confident in my ability and to not be afraid of the unknown. Crawford told me I just need to "Jump off a cliff and fly." I think I'm going to have a running start...

Senior Art show will be in almost exactly 3 months. It will open in April and end after graduation. All I know is that I will be doing books of some kind. I also want to incorporate printmaking into it. So I have a chosen medium, I just need some inspiration! So whenever I think of something, or hear a song that becomes visual for me, I write it down. I'm starting a Senior Art journal of sorts. She wants us to write al of our thoughts about everything down. Of course I also need to sketch and such, so I need a nice large sketchbook to go with it.

The only thing about art and taking art classes is that I tend to get some of the best ideas when I'm trying to sleep. But does that really help me in regards to rest? No, not really. So I've decided that I need to buy a bedside lamp and keep my journal there or else it will take 2 hours before I fall asleep at night. I figure if it's a great idea I may as well write it all down and draw it while it's fresh in my mind.

Lately I've been up late thinking about printmaking and monotypes (which are the kind of prints we are working on at the moment). Today was our first day of work. I haven't taken printmaking since my FRESHMAN year here at SVU! So it's been about 3-4 years. I think it went fairly well. except for teh part where my fingers and hands got ink all over them! HAHA! Hence I'm seeing black. It seems like the black fingers are BACK! Honestly? I'm so excited for printmaking! I always enjoyed it (although I wasn't very good at it back then... Or at least my skills have improved since then), hence I'm makking it part of my senior show.

I know this is essentially all about art, but art is life. What can I say? Art is everywhere! It's in movies, the clothes we wear, the furniture we sit on, the books we read, the music we listen to and every sign or logo you see? Yep. that's all art. Isn't art wonderful? God really is the master artist. I don't think there's anything more beautiful than this Earth. The other day I saw the most breath-taking sunset and I just thought "Wow. God is amazing." Because He is! He is the master creator, and because of that he gives us all the ability to create :)

I would show you an example of a monotype, but I don't want to post something that's copyrighted. So I might have to add one of mine. Eventually. But for now here's a random picture of me from Christmas '09 where I'm painting a picture :) haha well, trying to anyway.

About Time!

HAPPY FINALS WEEK!! (ha...ha...)

I decided that it was about TIME I wrote on my blog! I've decided that I need to be better about it.
So last time we left off...
I was finishing up my Summer in Utah. So Since then I:
- Got to see Katie (before leaving UT)
- Stayed in Arizona for a week (before fall semester)
- Started Fall semester at SVU
- Went to my cousin Joshua's wedding in September
- Received the call to be a Relief Society teacher (I LOVE IT!)
- Stressed out a LOT over classes
- Did my senior presentation for my Family Life major
- Turned 22
- Kimberly came home from her MISSION (yeeeeah!!!!)
- I went to a few school dances (both of which I went with Lyzzie)
- Had a great Halloween and dressed up as Thing 2 (Lyzzie was Thing 1) from Cat in the Hat
- Got to see my brother Eliot when he brought me his car (which is now "mine")
- Went to Raleigh for Thanksgiving with Saskia
- Did a whole lot of homework
- And more homework...
- and more stress...


so here are some pictures to go along with my list :)

Everything in between

WOW! It's about time for an ALANNA update! I know, I'm bad at this and it's been forever. Let's see...
At the beginning of April my family (only Jonn and Eliot could come out of the 4 boys) and I went to General Conference! It was so cool! We went to the Saturday and Sunday afternoon sessions. I think of of the highlights is that at the last session of conference President Monson waves to each section of the conference center, and we wave back! But it was a very special and unique experience, and I'd love to do it again sometime!

After General Conference weekend I went down to St. George to spend about 3 weeks iwth Chris, Elisa and the kids. One of teh best things we did while I was there is go to Zion National Park. It was so a beautiful and the hike was really easy, but the view was amazing! Plus it was really fun to see Timothy and Amanda and spend time with them. Timothy taught me how to play Pokemon (yeah.... shush) and Amanda and I painted together! Overal it was a fun trip. Then, Chris drove me up to PROVO, UT to go to BYU for the summer! Yeah.... I know... pretty crazy.
For the first week or so BYU was pretty rough. I felt friendless and I was just having a hard time adjusting to everything that was going on in my life. Adjusting to a new school, finding my way around campus, not knowing anyone, and just feeling really lost. I think I actually went through a little bit of an "identity" crisis. Ok, a small one, but it still happened! There are just so many amazing people here and I just wasn't feeling like I fit in. But about 2-3 weeks after school started (The end of April) I finally (again) figured out that it was OK to be me, and to just be true to my self. Pura Vida!
So FINALLY after being here for about 5 weeks, I decided that I was comfortable enough documenting my life here. haha. ok, mostly I just didn't have anything TO document! So Jenny (my roommate) and Camille ( a pinoy girl from my ward) decided to make bread, and I decided to join them! And I figured "hey, it's a social interaction, I should take a picture!" And some of you know me well enough to know that I LIKE to take pictures! So I decided to put some pictures from that on here.
Hmmmm BYU in general is good. I enjoy all of my classes. I'm taking book binding (auditing, which means I'm just taking it to take it, and not for credit), Infant Development (my hardest class), Adolescent Development (the teacher ROCKS), and Polynesian Dance (yeah... it kinda hurts but it's way fun!). At this very moment I SHOULD be writing a paper for infant development (hey, I started it!) but i needed a break. Let's see, what else at BYU?

Well, I made bread. Did LOTS of homework and lived in the Library (not ALL the time) got to see some cool friends, but after being here for 6-7 weeks, my roommate left and I discovered that I was being LAME and really needed to make friends and actually BE social.
So on Sunday me and a bunch of girls from the ward went to the temple grounds, and afterward some of us watched a nice wholesome movie. Monday night I went to FHE and played games with some people afterward. On Tuesday night I went to play voleyball with some people from our ward, which was really fun! I liked it a lot. On Thursday night I went and played games with some people from my ward, and today I got to go tot he temple with a sister from my ward. So YEAH! Way to go me on being social! haha.
So overall things have been looking up. I'm really looking forward to Summer term. I only have classes on Monday and Wednesdays and I will be taking self-defense, Personal and Family Finances, and SOcialization Across Childhood! wooooo!

That is all I have to say for now! :) Hope you all liked the 3-months-in-one-blog post!

Busy Busy Busy

The Last few weeks have been pretty busy! I got accepted into BYU for their Spring and Summer term as a visiting student. Also, Mni was baptized on March 7th! It was a wonderful experience and she's so happy and excited about being a member of the church. It's wonderful to watch. Another event is that I got to go to Lynalice's bridal shower and wedding! I almost cried at the wedding... but I didn't. A lot of people did though. I've decided that when I get married, I will probably cry tears of happiness. I mean, if I almost cry at a friends wedding, what will I do when I get married? haha! Oh... and which apparently will be within the next year because I caught the bouquet. wooo. go Alanna for snatching it out of the air!! So here are some pictures of recent events :) enjoy!

At the Bridal shower. Yeah, we lke to put pictures up backwards haha.
L-R: Elder Noesi, Elder Crum, Mni, Alanna. This is us being normal :)


Mni and I after the baptism :)


Here's the "normal" picture

I suppose...

It's about time for an update! wooooo! I have this funny habit of either blogging, or hand writing the stuff that goe son in my life. Lately I've been journaling more than anything, hence me not blogging more. But i figure it's nice to at least put updates on whatever is going on.
It is February 2009, and a new year has passed. 2008 was a pretty crazy year! I went to school in the beginning of the year, I traveled to Boston/Massachusetts, I traveled to Italy (both school related), I spent End of May-beginning August in Hawaii with my mom and Grandma, and spent mid August -Early October in Florida with mom and dad. I decided in July (very end) that I wanted to try and serve a mission. I made wonderful new friends like Crystal and Bekah and James. I got my first "real job" in 2008.
Now it's 2009. So much has happened in 2 months! I finished my job (it was seasonal) I FINALLY turned in my mission papers, then was told that it wasn't what I was to do, and now I am making plans to go to BYU for their spring and summer terms so that I can take classes to gradute in 2010 (on time)! So plans have changed drastically. But I really think that this year will be even better than last year. Last year my testimony grew and I learned a lot of things.
Since this year has started I've learned SO MUCH. I almost feel like I've learned more about the Spirit, Jesus Christ, Heavenly Father and the gospel in the last two months than I did last year! Being "rejected" made me realize a lot of different things.
First, I learned to forgive myself. Second, I grew closer to my friends because o fthe support they gave me through the whole process. Third, the Lord has given me an opportunity to be a missionary at home. I'm haven't been called to be a ward misionary, but I've been a member missionary! Because, of ocurse, we are all missionaries. Luckily for me the Elders invite me to come teach with them, and we've been teaching two girls now for over a month, and one is planning on getting baptised in 2 weeks!!! The experiences I've had teaching (or helping to teach) have lead me closer to God. I believe that Heavenly Father gave me this chance since I was not called to be a full time missionary. I've been blessed in so many ways since the "rejection" that I know it was the correct decision. I knew it after 3 minuted of crying my eyes out.
I'm doing well and I'm happier than I have been in a while! I'm glad to say that I know where I'll be in a year (I'll be at school) and I know what direction I want to take my life. It's nice to NOT be in limbo anymore in regards to my life. I am happy and life is wonderful!

Come what may and love it!

More updates

Let's see. First, my mission papers. We found out that the Stake pres didn't inform the 1st pres. SO now it is being transferred home to AK. So I have to wait about a week or so to do that. Pretty much that means I get to re-do my Stake president interview! woo hoo. In all I've had 2 bishop interviews (by 2 different bishops) and now 2 STAKE interviews! Pretty crazy. So now my papers will be a mix of Hawaii, Virginia, Florida and Alaska! pretty intense, right?
Second, my birthday. I came home from Florida a week earlier than my parents so that i could drive up to Fairbanks and see Kelsey and Jacob for my birthday. Plus I just REALLY wanted to be home for my birthday. It was about a 7 hr drive up since the pass (near Denali) was really snowing hard and the plows had just come out. Yes. I drove by myself. no it wasn't scary and YES it was COLD. So i arrived in Fairbanks on the 10th and Kels and I just hung out, and on Monday the 13th (my birthday) Jacob took me shooting for my birthday and we went out to eat and then went back to Kelsey's apartment for cake (she made me one with purple frosting!) and ROOT BEER!!! yeeeah.
Thirdly, ALANNA GOT A JOB! I will be working at GAP Kids at the Dimond mall. I'm very blessed because I will never ever have to work on the Sabbath. Why? Because the manager's husband is LDS. :) I KNEW I liked the manager (she isn't LDS, but she goes with her husband). The people there are REALLY nice and fun and I am just so happy with it! Also, Sis. Clerc asked me to babysit her kids tomorrow night. 4 kids. 4pm-11pm. 12yo, 8yo, 3yo and 9mo. I sure will have a HANDFULL!!!! I guess it's just practice for the future :)

Oh, and I started a family blog (we will see how successful that is) it's www.thehollandexperience.blogspot.com (I thought the name was pretty cool haha)

I must be bad at this

So I haven't posted for... a while. Life has been pretty crazy! After visiting Katie mom and I headed to Florida to stay with dad. He ended up being extended to the 15th of October, so we were there longer than expected. We had a lot of fun though. Jonathan came to visit us for the first week and we went to Busch Gardens and Disney World. Then Jeremy visited and we took him to Downtown Disney since it was TOO MUCH to visit the Parks.
After they left I started to get used to life (but never used to the heat) mom and I went exploring around Tampa. We really enjoyed staying there, but it is nice to FINALLY be home! The ward members in Tampa were sad to see us go, but it was time to go. Looking back I think that Tampa was a good thing for the family. Mom was able to get medical help, and dad was able to help out a ward and I was able to have a Bishop and Stake President that would help me with my mission paperwork.
Now, as far as my mission paperwork is concerned it's all on hold. I've already done everything I can do. We have to wait for the First presidency to OK my application and then submit it. Apparently we don't even know if the Stake Pres has informed the 1st presidency or not... Sooooooo that's just complicated in and of itself. So now I am at home, probably going to go work, and if I don't get a call until the end of the year I might go back to school for a semester.
I also think that there are other reasons why my paperwork is not going through. I did get the impression that I needed to do my paperwork right away, and I did. But now, it's all just in La La land (as I feel) and I'm still just going and doing what i gotta do. So now I am wondering if Heavenly father is giving me a chance for something other than a mission.
I'll have to put more later and catch up, especially since I just had my 21st birthday!!

Katie

I went to visit Katie and decided to post some pictures! :)

Mission Papers

Today is Friday and I finished my Mission papers YESTERDAY!! I am really excited! I am hoping to get my papers turned in by Tuesday. All I have left are my interviews! I'm doing it by paper though, so I don't know if they can fax it or if they have to mail it. I'm half ready to mail it myself super priority overnight haha. I don't think they'll let me though :) I'm just really anxious to get them in in case I need to drop out of the semester.
I know some people are curious as to how I came to the decision to go on a Mission. So Here is my story:
I was sitting in Relief Society and the woman who was teaching mentioned her mission. When she said that I started thinking about my birthday, and I realized that I turned 21 in two months and that I could go on a mission. Then it hit me. The Spirit came so strongly that I started to cry. My impression was that I needed to do my mission paperwork NOW. I was still crying through relief society, and I wrote my mom a note saying that I wanted to do my paperwork. So after RS I went to the Bishop and he gave my the papers to fill out.

The next day (Monday) I called my doctor and dentist to get appointments, and they both scheduled me in for the next day (Tuesday). Mom had a dental appointment Monday, so I just went with her and they ended up having a free spot so I got my dental cleared on Monday. This was very fortunate because it gave me the time I needed after the doctor to do my lab work and immunizations (PPD). Also, my Army doctor ended up being LDS! So he was really helpful and willing to help :) So yesterday I went back to get my lab results and my PPD checked out. I also got my insurance figured out, so my paperwork is COMPLETE!

Now it's just a matter of having my interviews ASAP :)

Pura Vida

Pura Vida is Costa Rica's "motto." It means "Pure Life." It has stuck with me ever since I visited in the summer of 2004. I think that living a righteous or pure life is important. When we strive to live righteously we strengthen ourselves and the people around us. So "Pura Vida" is my little reminder.
I hope you enjoy my blog! I thought it would be a good way to stay in contact with everyone! Feel free to leave comments etc.